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Saturday, 17 October 2009

Im used to waking up early that i couldnt slept any longer. So i got up at 9am and staring in the space. The weather was good rainning but i just couldnt went back to sleep. I had to eat porriage for breakfast as my widsom tooth hurts badly plus my mouth is still swollen. Anyway today is self revision with my school mates and we were suppose to meet up at 2pm but all came around 3pm. I couldnt resist in drinking Caramel ice blended fappee. Its addicitive!!! But we all shit down and start revising on our business statistic. But the sad thing was we only went through chapter one on standard deviation. While i went over to meet Clarice. I love her and really loved the dress she wore, ofcouse still as pretty as ever. Just went to eat pasta mania and chill out at cinielesilure and went over to upper serangoon to find tuatao. Tml will be serene birthday i wonder do i have enough time to go over to her birthday part anot!

Thursday, 15 October 2009

all my widsom tooth are GONE

Monday is Business statistic class test OH DARM! Chapter 1 - 4. Everyone is scared that they would fail. I Needed to study need to know the formula well. Im actually touched that Tua tao from bukitbatok drove his bike and park his bike at my house multi-story carpark and accompany took a bus even though the journey was just 3 bus stops away he didnt mind at all. After class i went to get my the side of my widsom tooth extracted out. Though i had my right side pulled out before i still nervous. I hated the pain after the numb was gone. The next day till the next two weeks will be suffering for me. So this time the doctor saw my teeth and said my right side is deeper i w as given alot of medicine for the next 2 weeks and total of 12 injections. And it was done at no time. The medicine was drowsy. Took a nap and when i got up the pain came. But while i swear i was eating satay and buger and minitoons sweets. HAHA. I took a picture of a butterfly resting at the flower. I was bored.

My friend posted my primary school picture oh when i look at it i just couldnt stop laughing! can anyone guess which one is me? ?
before and after
a butterfly on the flower
i love minitoons sweets!!! anyone who buys a bag of minitoons sweet for my 21bdae i will be SOOO touched seriously!!!! :)
my widsom tooth medications how many teeths do i have?? my widsom tooth!!!

Sunday, 11 October 2009

Busy with school school school. Having troubles with business statistic but when you get a question right is full of happiness within me. Soon my exams will be coming in like 9 more days. In the past usually work work work while now school school school. And so not used to it that on saturdays im free. Suddenly i contact back with my primary school friends. 8 years till now!!! OMG time flies and all are having their degree already while im still behind time having my diploma. Met up with Esther today oh i miss her much and she remember so much about primary school like it was just yesterday. While i totally forget about everything because of my poor memory but im gaining back my intelligence. I like so stupid that only today i get to go to orchard ion. I thought it was all about branded stuffs but There were shops that are still cheap. That i brought two shoes at only 25 bucks! but its for school and it will only last me for like 3 months the most. And i zara long sleeves all for schooling. Soon i would be like aiming for a blazer. Seems like far east have lots of hot deals but i need a part time job soon for my cravings for shopping.That what girls would never stop doing. My mother finally get to cook and i just simply love her cooking. Because she hardly cooks. Im ofcouse happy that things are back on track right now. But when i heard about my primary school friend missy essy which she also had a messy life i was shocked but atleast she coping well glad!!! My widsom tooth is aching going to the dentist again on thursday i had the pain!! I miss movieing!!!!!!

looks messy but delicious!!!

Monday, 05 October 2009

It seems like too fast or too quick with the decison that my parents had made which was to go back to study. But i guess its the best way too. Its been my second week back to school. At first i really couldnt get used to it as ive been working for 4 years for now and suddenly im back to studying, and since im studying full time i have to put down my job. And the feeling was different because you have to limit yourself in buying stuffs and going shopping was out of my mind. Limiting to 20bucks a day. Totally not used to it. Plus morning classes starting from 8.30-11.30. Though its just 3 hours of studies but when im learning business statistic it can drive me in a messed in the brain, the lecturer teaching was fast that its hard to keep up and most of the students in the class will be copying here and there and having lots of question marks in their head like i have in mind. And i was still the usual a movie queen. Atleast in a week i have to see one movie. And i watch the ugly truth and the fame. Both were indeed nice. In the past when watching movie there was always popcorns or nachos but now im always going into the cinema without the drinks either. Things changes after years past by. One thing i didnt like about morning class was the timing and i have to straighten my hair in the morning. My hair just keeps getting shorter and shorter. But since people prefer me with short hair i'll just keep it the way it is. Pimples just keep popping up now and then. Using whatever oxy 10 was not in the use anymore. And thats bad means im aging? Im only going to reach 21! Its true that woman dies when she reaches 30 while man is their youth when they reach 30! . . .
Love them both
i look so short! same haircut
new hair cuttt~

Saturday, 26 September 2009

Life in prisonment

My nightmare wasnt over. My heart is still not at ease, and i wonder when it will be at ease and when was the time that i could be able to settle and do the things i wanted to do before time was running out. I didnt expected on 1sept i would actually be remanded for 3 weeks and was send with rtc and probation report. The first day tears ran down. At court locked up having to wait for all the cases in court to finish at 7.30 that was the first batch. Only 7 to 8 at that submission. Once was in CWP was HELL. Everyone had to be strip naked and things had to be down quick. They would record the number injuries you had and scars you had. And in prisonment theres only yes mahm and no mahm and sorry mahm. Nothing more each were then given a dog tag on the hand with numbers. My was 6386. You could imagine how many people has been going to prison. Thats only the woman side ofcouse. And the funny story was there were lots of officer that were butch. In my mind i was thinking what has the world been becoming? You were only given One blanket one mug one tooth brush half soup for body use and another half for your cleaning.a comb and a spoon. First week of quartine was atleast 20over people in a dorm. The dorm floor seriously was like the road. Abit of turning on the floor would lead you to blueblacks and i had many. You would get to see all kind of people young old china people vietnam all kind of races and ages. I mixed with the people i find worth talking to and not getting involve into trouble. But inside prison you have to look after yourself because no one would look after you. I couldnt even slept for the first night. I cried in my sleep. I know that my parents at home would be crying too. Morning 5.30am the lights will be on and it was take turns to bathe. 5person in the bathroom and the malays were always the first to bathe and the longest then it was our turn then was the china and the malaysian. 30minutes was all they give and the water will be turn off. So water was precious so as your soap was precious. Morning was changing shift for the officers and we had to sit in the rows of 5. And will be called for muster. Muster was to be sitting down with the hand your lap and no sound and one officer came to check the number of heads we have to greet good morning, good afternoon thank you, good evening and good night. 6.00am there will be a beep and it was breakfast. Breakfast alternate days would be either kopi or tea. Each person one cup but you could see everyone snatching for more. And 2 slices of bread it was either jam or butter. And sometimes the butter was like free. We had to sit in rows of two. Within 15minutes all rubbish and plastic bags were to be send out. Sometimes i was still sleepy i would just skip breakfast and giving it to other inmates like a pregnant malay girl. I find it a pity a pregnant woman have to suffer inside jail but she seems happy with it and appears to not matter to sit for the 3yrs in prisonment. The remandees like me was to wear green and for those who were sentence was white there was either ls or ss. Which means short sentence or long sentence. Then after breakfast is was free time and temperature taking then it would be free time to 12noon. I would either sleep or go around talking to people listening to their life experience to past time. And i met some good people there who actually came in to jail because of greed fault in money and serve sentence was only two weeks or a year. drugs cases was atleast a year. So everyday my heart was not at ease. I wasnt happy thought of the time outside what would my parents would be feeling how are they. At 12noon was lunch and it was rice was one veggie and one meat or fish or hotdog. And it was free time again and at 4. Clothes came in for us to change and 4.30 was bathing time again and 5 was dinner. Dinner was always the same meal which was meat and veggie. i got sick of it and always give other inmates my chicken and just eating the veggie. Whenever we were called out to the dorm and either called for seeing a doctor or anything. Your hands had to be behind the back. And going to a door you have to squat down and going pass a gate you have to open your collar and letting the officer lift up your bra and your underwear they were scared you smuggle anything. Whenever you see a officer you have to sqaut down and greet her. And have to face the wall and no talking to other inmates. If you did talk to other inmates the officer would be there to scold you off. At times we were very peaced off with the china people they will talk so loud and they are so dirty. When they go to urinate they wont even wash or used tissue. Urine smell and when they shit they wouldnt even clean and we will scold them off. Or they haven menses they just throw their kortex into the bin and there will be alot of ants coming over. My worst nightmare was when i came my menses on the third day of prisonment. I always had heavy flow and i neeeded atleast 4kortex a day but the officer only give you 2. I cried no one was there to help you but i was lucky the auntie was kind and always get extra for me. I would lie still on the floor not moving and not drinking water or anything as my stomach was very cram and i scared it will overflow. The kortex they give was not good one ofcouse. And it was a toture for me. But i have to accept it. After a week my parents finally came to see me for televisit. I was happy and when i get to see them by tv i cried so as all of them. it was only 20minutes and that 20minutes was very precious to me. They could buy visit food for you which cost 5bucks. 2 apple one wheat biscuit one raisin and one snack. all was not seen in supermarkets. After one week on tuesday was to seperate dorms already the long sentence will be at D block level four. The remanded will be at dorm 1 or 2. The short sentence will be at D block level 2. While i was a young prisoner i was transfer to C block level 2. It was a cell with four inmates. The place was so small that you only have 3 steps you can walk. And beside our cell you cant see the other inmates but could wear them talk ofcouse and beside my cell were those special inmates which was murder cases. And at C block level 3 was RTC and level 4 was waiting to be sentence to death. Four people in a cell ofcouse will better you wont be scared somebody were there to steal your items. But if your items were vandalised or have scratch or lost or broken you have to get a thumbprint means 5 more days in prisonment. I stay out of everything as much as i can. I couldnt stand the inmates i had to stay for the other 2 more weeks before my court date. They were 15 16 17. They were all yaya and trying to show off. But to me it was rubbish i just read my boooks and meditate as i have all the time i have. I kept praying to god that god would let me be out of prison on 22th and i would be good and eat veggie for 7 days 7 nights. And on 22th was my court date i was to go court in a white 3/4 and a ah ma pants. God. But i was nervous and was shaking but the officer suddenly said i was on bail on another 3 days i was happy even just for 3 days. I hugged my parents and i cried again. I went back home touching all my stuff and cherishing every moment every minute. On 25th i went to court and i pray for the best the dpp object me in probation and said i was to be sent to rtc at once. But the good thing was the probation officer and rtc report was more merit points and the judge wants a full detail in my lawyer and the dpp so the case was postpone till another 2 weeks i faster enroll school and conserlling my parents tried to do as many things as they can to get me out. I let my parents down and i really hated what i did and i love them as much as they loved me. Case postpone to 13oct the final. I will be staying school on monday at mdis at 8.30 - 11.30 finally im a student again. I learn my lesson and life in prisonment will mental toture. You were treated like dogs. Or maybe worst then that. I would dare to anything or touch drugs again because there a very big price to pay and there are many wonders you can get with life :)